Christine's story

printed with permission

Dearest Bashi

Thank you, so much for your help and advice. I have been putting into practice my exercises and have found an enormous change taking place, like a metamorphosis. Firstly, since I was in a mixed up state of energy and emotion, I had found my breathing incredibly difficult; even just to try and calm down. So that, when your call came it was very hard. That has much improved.

Creating a room in my head has been very powerful and positive. My space-cadet tendencies were rarely in my control. In the past I have preferred to be out-of-it because it was easier to deal with than being HERE NOW! Sometimes the rush of the frozen emotions around my body was extreme and with physiological effects on my nerves and body. My fight or flight turned into Freeze and space out!

Everything used to be so confusing and mixed up and I could never understand why?

When your letter arrived and I read through the training worksheets, I began to sob uncontrollably, with a sort of mixed up relief. I also felt an enormous sense of being able at last to see through my own mixed-up mess. I now feel that when I get balled up with that big lump in my stomach, I will be able to do something. But, best of all, I have found that the more I do the work, the less balled-up I get inside.

I have gone through quite a lot as I am sure you know. Initially, my system seemed to turn up-side-down and inside out! My digestion and elimination became and still is sometimes messed up. I have gone through calm, excitable, up and down moods. (What's new?); But, also incredible insights into myself and others, too.

A week ago, I was listening to a positive thinking tape, which I never do lightly. I always listen intently, before I can relax and let go & then I know I am in full control of just what is going into my subconscious. But, you enter a dreaming pool; from your safe place (my room) I always enter the pool now, from my room and the scene outside. When I am there I meet my Spirit Guide and power animals.

Something wonderful happened, I saw myself as the child who was abused at 4 & 5 years and the three of us played together. Then the others came and it was so powerful I cried and sobbed. My power animal is a white horse and my inner children rode him and we were together again. When I left and came back to the "room" I felt I had been re-united with lost parts of myself! I have previously done "inner child work" but could never seem to see where I had stepped away from myself.

This can only be from the work you have helped me with!

I also know that the blocks in my lower Chakras were so complete that even though I had meditated for nearly 30 years I was completely unaware of it. I assumed that because my higher chakras were operating reasonably well that the lower must be! That is how disconnected I was. I never grounded myself, even through others talked of it with me; I never ever really gave it a thought nor put energy into it.

I am beginning to feel more whole and more complete than ever in my life and I cannot thank you enough for your warmth, understanding, help and guidance.

Yours truly

Christine Ruth Bell