Claire's story

Thankyou for your telephone call earlier today, your advice &
support is greatly appreciated. I seem to give you a badly broken piece of
pottery & you brilliantly superglue all the fragments back together in
exactly the right place to make it whole again! To follow is what I have
written today about the last few months, please use as much of it as you
feel necessary, I don't mind who shares it, if it can help someone else then
that is great.

With love and thanks to you Bashi

Ckaire xx

Since beginning my Clairsentient work in earnest, life has been extremely
painful, chaotic & traumatic. Less than two weeks after my initial
consultation, I had one of the most emotionally painfull experiences I have
ever encountered (a total relationship breakdown with my mother) & since
then I have experienced every possible negative emotion I believe known to
human kind! This has happened not only with some deeper relationships but in
everyday life also, the pressure has been building & building. I wondered
many a time when the last straw would be put upon me & I would eventually
break! Throughout these painfull months I have also felt a great deal of
confusion, overwhelm, exhaustion, alienation & had more than my fair share
of health problems. I truly felt that this dreadful time was connected to
the work I am doing, therefore I had to ride it out but at the same time
desperately wanted it to end as I was unsure how much more I could cope
with, some days unfortunate events & circumstances would arise on an hourly
basis. With all this going on, my energy levels & emotional state were
swinging from one extreme to the other (again some days on an hourly bais)
my life felt totally out of control & I seemed to be in a state of
bewilderment most of the time. It all seemed to culminate with a very
frightening encounter with an aggressive & threatening man that made me feel
terrified & trapped, the same feelings that I have experienced previously in
other situations several times from when I was very young, all the terror of
past experiences came back with this latest incident. It was after this
recent event I realised that everything I had been going through over the
past months was dragging up emotions/negativity I had found painful in the
past. I felt a huge physical as well as emotional part of me was about to be
expunged from me, I could literally feel it rising up as if it was another
entity inside of me. After a couple of days it started to slowly dissipate,
small changes ocurring by the hour until I woke up one morning & felt
totally becalmed & empty of this " pain" I had been so full of. In it's
place is a white light & a feeling of inner peace, comfort, safety, purity &
for me the most significant is a very strong awareness of other
non-physical/non-earthly energies surrounding me, which are supporting &
helping me. I would even go so far as to say I feel "cradled" by them. These
energies have been with me throughout, I know, but it is only now that I can
really, truly feel their love & what a beautiful, wonderful feeling that
is!(the poem "Footprints" is quite appropriate here!) I have been through
similar phases like the one I have just had since I was young but I can
honestly say that the phase I have just had has been so overwhelmingly
painful I wondered about my own strength to survive & overcome, it has
certainly felt like a huge battle. This particular phase has, I'm sure,
ended now & I am left with a most wondrous gift, a knowing that I have grown
spiritually so much & that what once could hurt me, can never hurt me again.
As I am writing this I am being urged to explain how I am
feeling right at this precise moment. Well, I still feel very tired, despite
sleeping soundly, & still in a certain amount of physical discomfort from an
ongoing health problem, a feeling of being slightly "fed-up" with everyday
insignificant stuff, but there is now a feeling of a deep place inside of me
where where I can dwell in absolute truth, without illusion & nothing that I
don't want to reach that place can get there, it is as if ongoing problems
are bouncing off an invisible force field that not only surrounds me but
extends deep within me & beyond somewhere. I feel as if I am being
re-generated & re-programmed, every single cell in my body is being changed
& I believe that is what is making me feel tired & not quite right just yet
but I know that very soon it will go & I will be just fine. I have a very,
very, long way to go on this journey but I feel I have well & truly started!